I love M. He means so much to me. I find myself constantly thinking about him. Wishing I was with him. He is such a good person, nice, sweet, caring. He makes me feel like I'm important to him. Like yesterday his roommate E got called in to work the graveyard shift at the Zoo so he gave him a ride and the was gonna take him home but since we had breakfast plans he was going to drive E home all the way to Boring then back to me. It's a half hour each way longer if the traffic sucks. I just thought it was sweet. The text he sent me said "I can't let you win every time. You would be spoiled, but, I will take E home and drive back and be with you." How sweet is that! He would go out of his way to see me.
He does frustrate me though. Like he is still trying to make his ex wife happy by not acknowledging me on Facebook - don't get me wrong I understand to a point the issues with her. But also at some point you need to put your current before your past. Am I wrong? Really, am I wrong? I know it's just Facebook but I feel like the secret in the closet. I feel like I need him to be honest about me everywhere or maybe we should take a break until he's ready to do that.
It's so frustrating because he's making an effort to see me more, but he still hides me from his family - Trust me, I understand that they (she - the ex) is weirded out by our age difference (30 years), and she still has most of his stuff since he doesn't have his own place yet, but my mom is just as disturbed by the age difference yet I deal with the backlash from it all the time because it's important to me to be honest about our relationship. Sigh. Idk what to do.
Daddy Issues
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It't time to get real folks. I have daddy issues and I have had them for a
long time. I'm ready to get rid of them.
I know some of you are reading this thi...
8 years ago
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