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Long day at work, and I left half an hour early - wasn't feeling good.   Throat, side pain....  yep  wasn't feeling good at all.   It was nice to get off a little early, got to spend some quality time kissing M....  yep, best way to kill time I think.   Met up with mom and C at the Portland Farmers Market off Hawthorne on 20th.  M met my mom.  Yeah, that was weird for me....  She's always awkward to meet after a long day at work, and I didn't warn her so she was surprised......   LAST  week on Thursday, old M gave me a ride home and C got super upset that he didn't get to say HI, so this week I made sure C got to say HI to the M that drove me home....   wow that's confusing and I typed it!

Tomorrow night M and I are taking C somewhere away from the city and  .........  Oh  no, I mean we are going to watch the Perseid Meteor Shower.  I'm looking forward to ti.  Hopefully C falls asleep in the car, and the full moon doesn't hinder out meteror viewing too much... I haven't been in a few years, so it should be pretty awesome, that and time with M is always awesome....

I'm trying to keep some distance between him and C at the moment because I dont want C getting attached like he did with ex M.  That break up wouldn't have been so bad for me if C hadn't kept asking where's M, where's M is M not my friend anymore.... UHHHHH  Well, buddy NO he's not...  Yeah, so I don't want that to happen again. 

I liked ending the last post with lyrics to a song in my head so here you go, tonight's song is by an amazing 80's band, REO Speedwagon!

I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.