Winter

We went to zoo lights again, this time I was armed with my camera that mom got me for Christmas. We stopped at pioneer square on the way so I could get a picture of C with the tree.

Zoo lights the second time was interesting. It was dumping rain like literally lol and we ran into M. M and I aren't talking very much right now and I have pretty much moved on. He hurt me by his absent behavior and not letting me know what was up. Turns out he decided he would stop seeing me to help make things with Mom and I better. That's nice of him except for the fact he decided this then forgot to mention it to me so here I am wondering why the man I loved never messages me, or never answers when I call. Never tries to see me anymore. Yep. It was great. He hurt me and I may forgive but I don't forget. He will always be the one who hurt me for no reason and I can't trust him now. He might do it again? OH and the best part.... When we saw him at zoo lights, he was wearing his effing wedding ring again. Um dude you aren't married anymore. Get over it!

So I am on the other side of the hurt and the anger and I am moving on without M. We may still be friends but I will never love him again like I loved him before.

Post Christmas woohoo

My mom got me a new digital camera for Christmas! And R got me an I-tunes gift card so with it I bought the movie friends with benefits and a couple songs. Mom got herself an iPad which is cool. She bought a tracing app and with it I made this awesome picture of my favorite TOS Star Trek characters.....

Christmas stuff

Well it is once again that fated holiday where people eat too much, worry about the things they get rather then give, and tend to be in a bad mood because songs about the season are on the radio and not the latest shit from Katy Perry or Lady Gaga....  yep.  it's THAT time of year again and I am trying to make the best of it.

We went to the Tree lighting and the Macy's day after thanksgiving parade like we do every year.  We went and saw santa and tonight we put up our tree.

Waving at Santa at the tree lighting

"Look at the lights mommy!"

"I want a Police Cruzer please Santa"

Best friend

We are going to the zoo today with B my best friend. We have known each other since we were freshman in hs and have been friends since sophomore year. He spent a year in Iraq last year and I can't even explain how amazing it is to have him back in town.

Do not know what to do here

Why do good things seem to come at bad times. Or decisions get made and you do things that seem like a good idea but then cause more issues after. I am stressed and freaking out and I don't know what to do. I have numbers to call and things to do and I am so confused. I thought it was a good idea but now I am regretting it and I can't take it back. What do I do? Seriously, FREAKING OUT HERE!!!